Okay, so where were we? Oh ya, forging ahead with tests, pills, shots, and all kinds of fun stuff. I wish I could remember or had noted the meds that I was given, but the one that I remember the name of is, you guessed it, Clomid! The drug that could possibly release multiple follicles causing you to have multiple babies! I thought, wow! I just want one, maybe two, no more than three kids PLEASE, not a whole litter!! Leave that to the rabbits! Needless to say that kind of freaked me out. The idea of twins though really always intriqued me. Now that we are having this issue, the idea sounds even more intriguing just so we can get it done all at once. But I stand firm when I say no more than three. So Dr. Zhang started me on the Clomid right away after giving me something to get my period going. Let the games begin!
Wow, can you say trainwreck?!? Being slightly emotionally unstable due to turning 30, plus quitting smoking, plus trying to watch my weight, plus work issues, and add that to the side effect of Clomid that is known for making one a huge bitch = Not a very fun road to go down! And for every month you don't ovulate, the next month's dosage is higher! Mike was the best. I couldn't have asked for a more supportive man to go through this together with. He knew that it wasn't the real me, just that everything was making me crazy. He got it. Don't get me wrong, he got pissy with me right back. Righteously. But not as much as I would have had the tables been turned.
Mike had his third sperm count done and the results came back that he was low. I'm sorry, I misplaced all my paperwork. I must have put it somewhere safe and forgot where I put it. So this is to the best of my recollection. His swimmers were around 72%...his nonswimmers were around 25%... defected was like 3%. I'll find out for sure and let you know.
I had all kinds of blood work done. One test came back that I had a hypothyroid. My thyroid didn't produce enough of the thyroid hormone. So I had to take Synthroid to bring that hormone level up. I was excited because I thought that maybe I would lose some weight. I did feel less tired and sluggish though, but no weight fell off. Darn it! Dr. Zhang did say that sometimes just correcting the thyroid can increase one's chances of getting pregnant. Nice, there might be a silver lining in this cloud. We were so hopeful, but that didn't seem to be the answer either. Perhaps we just didn't try for long enough. It was only about a 6 month time frame, but felt like years.
At that point, I had been through a job position elimination and placed in a different position. I started becoming totally consumed by that. I was unhappy and felt really stressed out all the time. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, but knew that was not it. So, we decided it was not a good time to have a baby and we quit trying. I never did go back to smoking cigarettes. I haven't smoked since Oct. 19th 2009. That is the day of our first appointment with Dr. Zhang. Even though we quit trying, I didn't see a point in starting back up again. I did want to try again someday and really didn't want to go through the agony of quitting smoking AGAIN! That was the best decision I ever made.
A few months had gone by and I was becoming increasingly unhappy with pretty much everything. I tried so hard to be content with where I was, I just wasn't happy and wasn't good at faking it till I make it either. So, I decided if I want to have a baby I need to be in a job that I enjoy or I am not so stressed so I can make a baby! From that point on I was in search of a new career. One that was kid friendly. I started looking at Corporate America! Positions that I probably could have done. And a few I would have done just to be somewhere different. And one that I really wanted and would have been good at. Well, I didn't get any of those jobs and grew increasingly disappointed in my current setting. So one day out of the blue I decided to quit my job. STUPID!! You can't have a baby on one income!!! Now what are we going to do? My night and shining armour comes to my rescue and tells me everything is going to be okay. For the first time in a while, I believed him!
After the initial shock of quitting my job with no back up plan....I was happy! I felt great! I cut my own hair! I was ready to conquer the world! Now, I have been blessed with some time to sit back and learn a few things about me, Mike, and where we want to be in life and how we want to get there. After quite a few disagreements and misunderstandings we are both on the same page and it feels good. I am in a work field that I love; paint and design. The best part is, my creativity isn't bottled up anymore!
So the point of all that was basically to say that now, after having had those experiences, we are really ready for a baby. We know what to expect so we can be better prepared. Our first appointment this year is January 21st. We can't wait...Here we go again!
